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I don’t want to be like a stranger…

Yesterday, I went downtown to visit my friend at work. I sometimes would drop by to see her whenever I get the chance or if I have something for her and her kids. I’m okay with it even if I know she works with my ex. I’m not awkward and I don’t think I will be in any case I see him there unexpectedly. Besides, he works there… right?

But, yesterday was really weird and so unlikely of me. I have to sneak around their building just to avoid bumping into him coz he just suddenly showed up to work on his day off. I was like right in front of the door when I’ve decided to give my friend a call and ask what time she’s off. Then she told me not to come in right away as my ex was there. So, I have to go some place else til he’s gone.

This is really ridiculous man! I mean, why should I be running around and go into hiding when he can do whatever he wants and whenever he wanted to do something. It’s not like he owns the whole downtown right? But somehow, it makes me feel like as if I have to adjust myself and be like a stranger all the time.

Fine. He lives around the area but it’s not like I go to his place and sneak around and check him out you know? I just wanted to go to places we used to go before without having to feel awkward and tensed all the time and make people worry bout us bumping into each other. If it happens, it’ll happen, right? The world is too small for us not to bump into each other.

If not now, soon… someday we will. And when that time comes, I hope he won’t be awkward with it and I will smile at him like as if nothing happened…